Anaiis Salles

Feeling whole. Safe again in my body. Un-wounded Psyche? Emotionally, mentally, and physically free to fall asleep and sleep through the night trusting the dark. No waking up at 12, 3, 6 or 9 a.m., the core of my bones burning.

Survival needs met without questions or proof of our “worth.”  No need to assume to a familial expectation hoping to be loved in return.

Western culture has a powerful taboo against any human being feeling whole for the better part of a life cut short, still...not awake to what's real. Killing time, killing love, killing ourselves. What is really going on?

Years ago before it was fashionable, I kept a gratitude journal. And I coined the expression 'radical gratitude. I choose one word at the end of each year which is imbued with a quality to enhance, to share more of that particular quality in daily life with others, or which I desire to receive.

Patience. Respect. Patience is gaining on me as an attribute I embody and I’m glad. That’s been a challenge.

Unconditional acceptance of who you are in any given moment.  birthright bliss!

No judgment. No synchro-mesh gears, emotional tears, or high vibe energy gears frozen with fear. 

Dare to write down every grand and gory detail of be/do waking hours and recalled dream as if this formation could save your life. As if you matter. Breathe.

I feel happy again. That’s it. That’s all. No reason. No action. Not the  ‘result’  of being smarter. Or Stronger. Or being perfect. Or accommodating whatever just feels 'off" – wow. Beautiful day. Sunny now. Coffee. Apple pie. Happy. No more creepy dreams. No punishments or rewards. No inauthentic roles to play or masks to wear in order to please or feed the Beast that needs to devour my soul for it to survive. I cancelled the dinner date. I deleted the phone number, email address, and Facebook account.